So I am going to start a count-down... more like a count-up

So it has been 5 days now. 5 very very long days. It's to the point where I am having trouble eating and sleeping because of this. I just don't know what happened. It's as if my world just stopped, like I fell asleep one night and when I woke up the next morning it was gone... just gone...

Life

So many things have been going on the past few days. I decided to apply to become an RA at my college, and I am happy with that decision. I have been hanging out with a great bunch of people, and really understand and love what college is all about. But at the same time, I am going through emotional turmoil. I know I am most likely over-reacting, but at the same time I am positive that this is the one instance when I really have a reason behind it. :/ and for once, I don't feel better to know that I am right in this case.

-sighs-

I hope the next few days go better...

so... motivation for that topic has been lost, I have a better idea.

I thought after watching the state of the union address would motivate me to send out a nice, or not so nice political message. However, taking the time to discuss the situation with some fellow collegians, and listening to some country music, I have lost all motivation to rant. Sorry for those of you waiting for another of my apparently well known rants. :/ You'll have to wait until the next massively annoying subject arises.

On to bigger and better things now. Scholarship season is upon us. Which means essay writing will be my main task for the next month or so. No big deal, I generally enjoy the topics chosen, and I have taken the day to narrow down the topics of choice to the ones that I feel I can accomplish and have a good chance to compete. there are a couple that I am really excited about this year, one by the seven fund (they usually have pretty good stuff), called The Morality of Profit. It's designed to make the younger generation think about the moral centers behind the large companies who exploit so many communities for money. everything from gangs who charge protection to the innocent little baker on the corner, to the sex traffickers snuggling women over the borders, to Wal-mart and other large chains making millions of dollars off of the average working man during this great recession. I'll save the rest for the essay I have to write. It's due at the end of February, so I'll probably have some clips up in the next two weeks. :)

Another project is more artsy. A 2 dimensional medium of the applicants choice to represent the true meaning of beauty. It's run by a non-profit group, girls helping girls, geared to showing girls and young women that the true meaning of beauty isn't what is shown in the magazines, or on gossip girl, or 90210. truly beautiful women are the ones who touch your life with their hearts. I mean, this is a message I have been helping the Girl Scouts of the USA get across for years, all of my delegate work and the committee meetings geared to the re-vamp of the whole system; it all had a point. To build girls of courage confidence and character, who make the world a better place. So I am really excited to help this group who has the same goals in mind. (plus I get to play with paint :P) But that isn't due til the end of may, so I don't think i will get around to it until the end of the semester, after I worry about my finals. It'll be a nice way to relax after all that tension.

finding all these dates and putting them down has reminded me to get myself organized for the next week or so of stuff. Two exams coming up, lots of stress. I may be spending far more time than usual in the gym just to get all the built up energy out. The only thing frustrating about hte gym is that when you run, you don't go anywhere. Which isn't the reason I want to run. So I may in fact be finding the other trail head for that path on the edge of campus before the week is out. hmm we will see; school must come first, stress relief second, sleep third. Oh the life of a college student!

Oh, by the way, last night was a full moon; and life was just as insane as one would expect on a full moon night. The weather changed from the brilliant beach day of Friday, to the depressing drizzle of a stay inside day.

The World Watches

Obama is giving his state of the union address, watch live on cnn.com, will post my ideas later :)

-Takes a moment to rant aimlessly and sound dumb-

So this is going to sound fully and completely ignorant of me, seeing as I am dating a native, but there are alot of Singaporean bloggers! I mean honestly, I have been flipping aimlessly through blogs via the "next blog" button so aptly provided me, and after ten blogs, I have come across, 6 schools (all in Singapore), one city girl displaced to the country with her new hubby, a similar girl placed in Savannah, an emo chick who honestly made me want to shoot myself for reading her stuff, and one other Singaporean, IDK how old she is, but she sounds about my age, and just as bored, as she ranted about what she saw on the news at the moment. Just throwing that random side-note out there.

I have also discovered that the best (scratch that, only) thing on TV at 5 in the morning is... nothing. There's a few old guys selling CD's and Telemundo's version of the body-shaper. At this point I might as well just go to bed, which sounds like a good idea actually, and sounds like what I should be doing, but we all know I don't always listen to my instincts on this matter.

In rejection of the television, I have chosen the Across The Universe soundtrack, a good play on the beetles if you ask me, and an excellent movie. the cast did a good job in pulling out the screenplay writers intentions here; though I like to give the credit to the sexiness that is Jim Sturgess. His remake of revolution kinda makes me wanna travel back to the 60's and punch a few radicals. -just had a thought- The idea of punching a few 60's radicals reminds me of Forest Gump, "I'm sorry I ruined your Black Panther party Jen-nay". xD

Though these movies coming out the past twenty years or so tend to play lightly on the sacrifices of the soldiers and draftee's of the Vietnam War; I am sure every American is grateful for the effort, and the sacrifice put forth by our brave soldiers on the front lines everyday, defending our freedoms, so that we can continue our lives happily, and blissfully ignorant stateside. As Brown so Zac choicely puts it:

I thank God for my life
And for the stars and stripes
May freedom forever fly, let it ring.
Salute the ones who died
The ones that give their lives so we don`t have to sacrifice
All the things we love

we should all take the time to appreciate a soldier, or the family of a soldier. Because it is easy to forget the sacrifices of the family members of our brave countrymen and women; giving their children, fathers, mothers, spouses, and loved ones up.

Now that I am done with my gratitude rant for the day, we will move on to the song I have had stuck in my head ALL DAY. Must Be Doin' Somethin Right, by the great country star, Billy Currington. However, in looking up the video to put here, I have decided it is dumb. Totally off topic, I mean, what does running on the beach have to do with this song. GRRRRR

Now that that moment was ruined, I'll post a clip that is going to make me happy again as only peanut can do.



LOL only peanut can make me laugh that much over the dumbest little things. Anyhow I am heading to bed now, night all! :)